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   I just thought of something else. hahaha.

   Mom and I were talking about dance a few days ago. I'd been going back and forth between trying to figure out if I should do the summer dance workshop or not. I was debating whether or not it would be worth it, given my future plans. [No, I'm not telling you.]

   Long story short. We ended up talking about how that would be a good goal for me as far as getting back in shape and working towards something.

   Which I'd been thinking a lot about as well.

   See, in order for me to have motivation and have that drive to work  -- I need a goal. I have to have an end result, something tangible to get in the end. A payoff.

   And then I realized that's the reason why I'm so obsessed with 2 Timothy 4.7-8 -- "I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith. Henceforth there is laid up for me the crown of righteousness, which the Lord, the righteous judge, will award to me on that Day, and not only to me but also to all who have loved his appearing."

  I mean, if that isn't encouragement and good motivation, then I don't know anything.

  Basically, that was my revelation. And a good one at that, if you ask me.. [: