[ good? ]

   the goodness of God?

   whatever that means.

   that phrase meant very little to me for the longest time. i mean, why on earth is God good?

   don't get me wrong - i didn't think God was bad or anything. it was more this deeper, underlying sense of legitimately questioning His motives for my life. what were the reasons for having me go through incredibly tough seasons, why did i feel so alone at times, why was it that in the hardest seasons He always seemed to be the furthest away... on and on. thoughts like these plagued my logic and tended to put a rift between the two of us, causing the gap to become larger than it perhaps already was.

   i had little understanding of what it meant to have a God that was faithful. who was true. who was just.