wednesday evening thoughts.

clouds pass by, thick with potential promise of typical portland rain. the breeze kicks up just slightly, though not enough to chill. our hummingbird friend stops by for a brief peer before deftly moving on within a brief moment, and all the while traffic hums faintly in the distance. cup of hot chocolate in hand, sitting on the front porch watching life go by. life has a certain feel of deep and utter calm; all that was stirred up throughout the day comes to a halt, with a sense of a breath taken and resolution of starting afresh.

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i was reminded, yet again, in conversation today that people and relationship are a liquid and sometimes seasonal entity. perhaps a part II of the intentional post and train of thought. and so these thoughts are thus spilled forth.

although it's been argued in past discussions that relationships are not meant to be broken - i continue to hold firm that this is not always the case. people are broken, and thus relationship cannot exist in the form it was originally created to be in this lifetime.

boundaries strain, intentions misunderstood. people grow into themselves (or out), and thus change dynamic of what once was. loyalties are lost. someone moves on.

a snapshot

another year past and passed.

it has not, by any means or definition, been an easy year. 

in fact, i think it's been the most challenging yet. it's been lonely, uncomfortable, heartbreaking, stretching, painful, stressful, sorrowful, angering, and the range of emotions+experiences goes on.

but.

it's also been joyful at moments. victorious at others. hilarious. incredibly growing, stretching in good ways. it's also been a steep learning curve in many areas. hard decisions were made. sacrifices. relationships broken, others mended. 

featured in the photo above are little bits and pieces from my life throughout 2015. particularly the joys, both big and small.