[ saving the kosmos ]

   This post is going to disturb you. Maybe even disgust you.

   I'm just sayin'.. you have fair warning.

   A long, long, long time ago, God created the world.

   Right. Pause.

   I'm sure all of us have heard the verse John 3.16, right?

   "For God so loved the world, that he gave his only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life."

   La dee da. Right. Pause again.

[ home ]

    "Home is where the heart is."

   A commonly said phrase, but I don't think people really understand the other side of this.

   It's crippling sometimes.

   Missing someone or a place so much. And it's made even worse by the fact that you know you can't do anything about it for the time being.

   It's crazy how much you can take something for granted or not realize how much you love it until it's miles and miles away.

[ the death of self ]

   It was like there were two different people living within her body.

   The one who wanted to stay selfishly in the comfortable, familiar life. The one who wanted to run home to her parent's house and stay in her basement and curl up on her bed, eat Goldfish and watch movies. The one who wanted to defy the obvious path that was set before her.

   Then there was the one who wanted to leave everything behind, dare to step into the new, be this radical person. The one who wanted to go out into the world, meet new people, learn about and experience new cultures, do whatever came her way. The one who definitely wanted to follow the calling placed on her life and put her focus where it should be.

   So many thoughts. Too many thoughts.