[ stepping up and stepping out ]

   it is that time again!

   .. that time where people are asking "sooooo what's next?"

   well i will tell you. in due time.

   first and foremost, i can tell you that i will no longer be a student here at the college in denmark.

 
   second, i'd like to give a tribute to the last two years spent here at the school, especially this last year, before i go on. this season has been such a journey.

   i am so incredibly thankful for the hell it's been. sounds weird, but it's true. it has been so necessary and difficult and awful and fantastic at the same time. [maybe not in the time itself, but looking back now, i can see the result, and it's awesome.]

   i am so freaking proud of myself and the massive hurdles i have constantly been jumping. 

   you know, at the beginning of this year sometime, i had a dream, in which my mom was telling me that i needed to grow up. i woke up the next morning thinking it was so ridiculous, because i have always been told i'm quite mature for my age.

   ahhhhh.. ignorance is a funny thing sometimes.

   at one point this year, i wondered how on earth i managed to have so many problems at one time. [of course, a lot of this had to do with the perspective i had at the time, and every little thing was stressing me out.]

   but, long story short, i have stripped off so many things from my life that needed to leave and weren't supposed to be part of me. i have been completely and utterly kicked out of my comfort zone at times, only to find the new place was where i was really supposed to be standing. i have been stretched and totally freaked out at times. 

   in all this, i had an amazing mentor, best friend, and a few others at my side constantly. not to mention my parents, who i skyped with allthetime, hearing my woes and frustrations, always quick to encourage and pray for me. they all always believed in me, and they always reminded me of who i really was and spoke to my potential. i definitely didn't see it at the time [and of course, this is a journey that we will always be working on], but i have experienced such a better and clearer picture of who i am and who God is through this process.

   i am finally closer to being at a place where i appreciate the process and not the destination. because the destination is the not the reason for going through things. 

   SO.

   this past year has whipped me into some serious shape, and i'm headed down a path that is leading me where i need to go, more equipped and confident in what i have.

   i'm sure you're wondering where this is leading?

   well..

   truth is..

   i may not be a student at the college next year..

   .. but i will be staff!! 

   ahhhh!! 

   i am incredibly excited and stoked for this next season.

   i will be a volunteer here at the school, working primarily in the areas of media and p.r., and continuing the training i have been doing with my mentor in the area of the prophetic/intercession. there will be some other things on the side as well, but i'll take those as they come and see what happens.

   so. yes. 

   this place has been such a wonderful training ground, and i wish to continue this, only having more responsibility, and being able to train others and give back in the process. so being trained, and training at the same time. that is the goal!

   i cannot believe that i will be here for a third year, it's blowing my mind a little bit. especially since i was only planning on being here for one year. but i know this decision is crucial and pretty smart. it's going to keep equipping me with the tools i want and need for potential future plans. 

   eeeeee! 

pretty much sums it up!