[ time's not a-wastin' ]

   God doesn't waste time.

    Something that never fails to awe me is His timing. There have been so many times when I've been waiting around, getting impatient because maybe things aren't moving at my speed or happening the way I want them to. And then He comes along and things end up far better than I could have ever planned.

   Right? I'm sure in one way or another, we can all relate to this. Everytime.

   When will I learn..

   Why do we waste so much time wondering why we're in this certain place of our lives? Why do we stress about "not being far enough" or "not growing enough"?

   Most of all, why I am wasting my time, and, ultimately, His time?

   It's so, so easy for me to get caught up in this endless circle of fearing I'm not growing enough, moving forward fast enough. I was stressing about this one afternoon, and after asking Him what He thought, He interrupted me and said "Stop. Just stop worrying. I have you right where I want you."

   That stopped my train of thoughts crazily running around my head and I began to think about that.


   There is so much that can be lost if we don't stop and appreciate where we are at the moment. Yeah, it's definitely not the fun thing in the world sometimes. I'm certainly not doing cartwheels about being so frustrated with myself at the moment.

   But if we push to move forward too fast, there are little details lost that you needed to spend more time on or be challenged with.

   These seasons of our lives -- yeah it's super cliché, but more importantly, it's true -- they all have a place and a purpose. Just like each season in nature has its purpose, so do those in our lives. As pointless as they may seem.

   What would happen if we stopped relying on our sense of time [which is awful], and started relying on His? On knowing that He knows better? On believing and knowing that we're limited by only what we can see, and not beyond?

   That's just it. We limit ourselves so much by thinking we have it all figured out. Like our timing is just so perfect.

   Oh trust me, it's not.

   I'm sitting here, literally no clue what I'm going to do in my future. But what gets me stoked is that no matter how much I sit here and conjure up for myself, He's got something far better up His sleeve. And that's incredibly exciting.

   And guess what! He has that for every single one of us. True story.

   I kid you not.

   Ironically, I've wasted so much time worrying about wasting time.

   A few nights ago, I sat in my room and fell apart because I see my whole life, and all the stupid little circles I've run around in and the same old repeats that have reoccured. It was such a reality check for me, and I got so frustrated with myself.

   I'm usually a fairly determined, motivated person. If I set goals before me.

   But I'm awful at keeping priorities. Especially without goals.

   Read the Bible? Naah. Play on the computer? Oh yes please. Story of my life.

   I have this deep frustration within me at the moment, and I'm working on letting this fuel me towards moving forward and setting goals and getting my priorities straight. Because ordinarily, I suck at that. But no more. No more.

   Moral of the story?

   Let's align ourselves with His timing. His purpose.

   Let's stop needlessly worrying about missing something, or not moving forward enough, because, I bet He's got you right where He wants ya.

   God has me hanging in this spot of having to fully depend on Him. It's so uncomfortable. Incredibly uncomfortable. And I'm constantly trying to figure out how to deal with it and stay calm within knowing that there's a reason for this, and that I need to get the most out of it I can.

   Don't try to rush out of the season you're in, the things you're dealing with. Allow the feelings and details to work themselves out and mature you.

   Why?

   Because God. doesn't. waste. time.